I feel a bit out of place now a days. So last night, I finally went to the club here in Baltimore after not going for a long long time. Every third Saturday of every month, this club is open from midnight until 6 am and it’s gay night or whatever. So I got all dressed up and was so excited to go. I wore these 6 inch booties, high waist leopard print booty shorts, and a blazer that stopped right above the bottom of the shorts so that my thighs were all exposed. I looked really great! I did my makeup and everything. I felt so cute. I was ready to mingle with handsome men and just have a good time. We get to the club and the I got in the boy’s lne and the security thought I was a woman in the wrong line. I let it go and moved on because I feel like being mistaken as a woman is a compliment because women are beautiful creatures. I get into the club and not ONE PERSON danced with me or approached me or anything. And to make it worse, lesbians were all over me trying to get me to dance. Everyone in the club thought I was a woman! I realized that from here on out, me having the chance to have a handsome gay man approach me and want to get to know me better on a more personal level will never happen because they’re gay and they think I’m a woman. It was so sucky to realize this. I had fun last night but then I didn’t because I felt ostracized and misplaced. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I don’t want to be alone for the rest of my life. I wish someone understood me.
I hate when I find myself attracted to a man who hasn’t nor will ever notice me nor will I ever meet. I just have to sit and read his posts he blogs and admire the pictures he posts. blahhh. I’m always going unnoticed
I’m Annoyed With Myself
I have this thing where if I’m bored or lonely or sad, I eat. I just eat anything at anytime that I want. It could be 3 am and I’d wake up and just go eat something. I usually am not even hungry and here I am just stuffing my face with junk. It’s already bad enough that I really kind of don’t exercise but I’m so into my body image and want to lose 2 inches off of my waist but eating like this….. this would not happen! smh
I feel a bit down and lonely. Nothing new
Give me a frame and complexion like Kelly Rowland, lips and eyes like Rihanna, hips, butt, and bank account like Beyonce, and Trey Songz as my husband and I’ll be set for life!