I love and respect men that do not judge transgender women and actually respect them and love them the the same if not more than cis women. A man that does not care about the politics of my transition and just loves me for me openly and passionately is all I pray for. I’m so sure he’ll come to me eventually. I must be patient. Many people tell me I’ll be lonely forever now but I have faith.
So at the beginning of the semester, I declared a minor in Women’s Studies because I’d like to go for a PHd in Gender/Queer Studies post undergrad and so I wanted to be prepare for that since my major was Biochemistry and all I had taken were natural science courses and done research in chem labs. Anyway, I have this professor for both my Black Politics and Women’s Studies courses and she’s the advisor for the gender inclusive group that I’m president of on campus called ‘Gender Equity’. I went to her office today and after doing housekeeping with the club and class, I asked her if she’d let me work with her on her research because I want to be a great candidate for grad school when I apply. Having no real humanities/social science background, I didn’t want the admissions people to look at me as if I’m not serious enough. She does research on LGBT policy and she wants to start on feminist ideas regarding surrogacy and statistics of laws limiting the rights of LGBT partners, etc. She said she’d gladly let me work with her! I’m already doing neuroscience research with a different program so I have to ask to see if I can be funded for both programs without any discrepancies. I hope so. Also, I told her about me being trans and planning to start HRT soon and she was so excited and is going to link me up with her trans friends that can mentor me and whatnot. She also said she’s going to push to get faculty restrooms open to me since we have no gender neutral restrooms on campus. I’m at a private, catholic university so they don’t know much about gender deviations lol. She said she’d also assist me with changing my name, changing my sex, my dorm situation, school paperwork, and all that other legal stuff. She was o helpful and open! I felt so great. I’m the first trans student at my university so I was so scared but having her there for me is amazing! I feel so great
So I posted about misogyny today on a blog and how it transcends into the gay community as femmephobia and transphobia and this guy posted this link: http://youtu.be/vp8tToFv-bA and started to talk about how he believes misandry is prevalent today….. Okay I agree that society expects that men must be chivalrous and take out the trash but… misandry? Really? Completely ignore history of like… let’s see…… the whole century long women’s movement maybe? How women still earn like $.77 to a man’s dollar? Like seriously. Get real. I am not here for no misandry. Miss me with that.
Today, I set my official appointment with a local gender therapist. I am officially mentally out of my self proclaimed “gender queer” label and on the road to becoming the woman I’ve always been inside. Everyone, say hello to L’lerrét Jazelle Ailith <3